January 2009
Bottle of champagne; gone. Too soon, too soon.
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so i just vomited blood and even though i feel really fucking bad im still having a hard time not stopping at the liquor store. i feel like shit in more ways than one.
Just vomited blood, sweet.
December 2008
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i realize that i stare at people alot. and i think about what its like to be them. because i dont feel like a human. the only reconizeable human emotion i feel is despair, and sometimes rage(which…
So, 2008. A phrase comes to mind, A Final Ending To A Long Summer… I spent the first half of the year sober, and quit smoking. Right now I’m considering getting back into a program. Even though I reject the premise of a higher power guiding you through sobriety, to me it’s a weak way to help yourself by relying on others. But maybe we don’t all have the strength to do it...
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how much do i have to drink to gain the courage to do what i can’t do sober? i wonder what they’d find after i’m gone? an unfinished game of solitare, empty bottle, my hungry dog. in my life i’ve…
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the bigger problem is that i really like this girl but i’m terrified that being honest will ruin everything. it can’t always be this complicated can it?(life i mean)
Today’s been fucking stressful , bad things have happened to good people and that’s not cool.
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i’m not drunk tonight because of the insufferable pain in my leg, although i did not take any excedrine today(bummer). rather, i’m drunk because i lied to my dying grandmother, telling her that “i…
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last night i had a fun time even though i missed the end of National Treasure. but i did get to get pretty drunk so you take the good you take the bad. i guess i’m supost to go see my family today…
5 beers, now i can function at a xmas party.
Tomorrows my last day off till January 8th. Lawd halp me.
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that i have a hard time hanging out with my friends. i cant be out and about without basically having a panic attack. i really do want to see my friends at parties and have fun but i just sit here…
Its really busy at work but i stopped to watch the sunset & like the man who took the road less traveled that has made all the difference.
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So here’s what I’m getting at. I love the show House MD because House and I share similar ailments, and I identify with his temperament. Also he’s pretty badass because he saves lives all the time.
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Oh and I left out the fact that I hate my life, working a day job. Honestly(expect anything less?), 11 years ago today, I lost my virginity to my then girlfriend. Then we went to the mall and I…
Today i watched an entire season of 24. The last 20 hours have been amazing and traumatic. Thx 2 mt dew t.bell doritos 4 the help.
Where did Ryan Adams go?
Foggy, are you out there?
And old family friend, Larry died tonight of Lou Gehrigs disease. Now its really time to get drunk.
I’ve got nothing to Tumbl, I don’t feel well and I’m at work. Also, the gift I ordered for my secret santa didn’t come in the mail yet, so I’ll have one very disapointed co-worker.
I just want to go home and watch 24 all day, like I did yesterday.
I just spent the last 2 hours shopping in target. I didnt need anything but i just spent $100. Wtf?
When did I become a failure ? When did I start letting myself down? Why cant I have the one thing I want?
Dont get me started on what did and did not occur…
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I was going to open this post up by bitching about all the time I’ve wasted in my life but… well I still will do as such. So this morning I’m putzing around listening to old The Gloria Record and…
Ima taking these pain killerz for my back and they make me realllllly looooose like, my head is swimming and i have to work in 30 mins.
I get to hear my new record today, hopefully it sounds good and i’ll be like, proud. Want a copy?
Oh any the store team leader just burst into this little office that i’m typing in and I got real scared and he just wanted to tell me some stuff that I...
So looks like i may have to quit my job and move back to bradenton to take care of my dying grandparents. Like next week.
Fat cop on a custom segway… Wtf?
I come into work 2 hours early to use the internet and get talked into running errands in that bmw again. What luck!
Theres a guy with the thing in his trachia smoking, awesome.
At the Naples Pier, where no fishing liscence is required.
I feel so disconnected from everything and everyone i cant explain how desperate this makes me feel for anything.
So i cant have internet with embarq without having phone service and i cant have comcast without cable tv. Suck it.
Right now I wish that I was drunk watching Tarantino films with Travis Martin. At least I’m drunk.
I’m sorry baby, I had to crash that honda.