As much of a relief it is to forget I’m different,...

As much of a relief it is to forget I’m different, it’s jarring to recall that I am and that the difference between you and I will never go away. Yeah, most days it’s pretty easy [remaining sober], but other days it’s like some cruelly ironic execration: May you love something so much that you are never allowed to do it again.

Mishka Shubaly

Oh brother, I can relate.